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why must people turn into horrible hypocritical bitches? seriously i told tori i'd help her and she turned on me. ali said she'd talk to me more, but that didn't happen either. isa said we'd hang out more. even julie said we'd hang out more. karly and amy promised to keep in touch. so did jelin and shivani. i dont even have the same friends i did freshman year. how am i supposed to know who my friends are. i thought friends were supposed to last for more than a year and the ones youve known since birth were supposed to last forever. my moms had a best friend since she was 6. i want that. i am there for EVERYONE! why cant they be there for me! why cant i let them be there for me! im just either angry or sad or focused when i want to forget all the time! i am rarely happy anymore. what the hell s happiness? i am so mixed up!